October 2011
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My thoughts consume the very essence of my being….I fall prisoner to my inner thoughts that want to lock me up and consume my mental from functioning in this thing called life… I continue to move forward but sometimes I feel like what is the point…The ones that said “I will always be there” Are no where to be found, often wonder what this life would be if I were to...
May 2011
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At this very moment
For some you all know my journey for others they are just starting to see, and if I could list everything I have been through I would need more than just this tumblr diary.
But let me just tell you 39 months ago I was 490 I lost the first bit of weight alone, then September 3rd 2009 in honor of the 1 year of my Mama’s passing I took charge of my life and had Gastric Bypass surgery...
March 2011
4 posts
We are still here! Be grateful!
by Linda J on Thursday, March 17, 2011 at 2:03pmIf you fail to see the beauty in just being Alive and able to function with all your limbs etc able to take in a deep breath and even if your nose is a little clogged or your head hurts etc…you live!!!!!!! Be grateful you still have breath in your body! There is someone as I type that is transitioning over… While you complain think...
prettifemme asked: hahaha i am even following you on here too.....aww snap im not that slow lol
Really?
It is 5am and I sit here and write this, I am thinking Really? Did I really fall in love with a human being that was so stuck on herself her wants her needs, that at any chance just traveled on a plane in the arms of another? the same one that was responsible for the reason she and I could never be. The argument that started over this same Journey.. I wish her the best but Really I just want out...
January 2011
1 post
She won't let go
I really don’t understand what I did to deserve this pain, I really wish she would forget my name forget I exist I really wish I never met her on a social network like this. We haven’t been together in over 5 years why the hell is she still bothering me! SHOO FLY keep it moving..It is crazy with each passing year I think Oh this year she won’t come around, then next time I look...
December 2010
2 posts
I am not stupid who really cares?
I feel inspired to write, I am sick of ppl saying they care but honestly they really don’t most just want to make sure you will be around the next day for them to ask you for something or so they can not feel guilty for not saying what they should have when you were alive and well.. Thanks to all that are truly concerned and care I appreciate you! but for those who have the nerve to pretend...
November 2010
3 posts
My First 5 Video - Josiah →
Happy Birthday to Jo Jo
singing “let me hold you tight if only for one night let me keep you near to ease away your fears…” Luther vandross I can’t wait to have you all to myself you know what I need you to do? She replies: “what is that?”
If only for the rest of the night just know nothing else matters but you and I so close your eyes and feel my arms around you know that my heart...
October 2010
2 posts
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My BBM Blast this morning...
Happy Tuesday! I just want to say this, in light of what recently has been going on in our community and even in others. I feel it is our duty to embrace our brothers and sisters not only in the LGBTQ community but all of them! Let’s let ppl know that we care! Say Hello to a stranger. Offer someone a helping hand. You never know the power your small gesture can have. Ask the ppl in your life...
CDJ is most def. the "New DRUG"
What is this you do to me, Vibrations to my heart and electro shocks to revive the part of me that I thought once died. It is like you were the perfect fix for me.. and I am cool with getting addicted to this. The side effects are wonderful and unlike other drugs I won’t need anything to cure the damage it causes.. I mean you got me ready to do all the things your last girl didn’t do.....
September 2010
13 posts
“Papi716 You ever wanna cry but can’t cuz you cried all the tears you...”
“RT @Papi716: Ok I think I put Babe to bed Literally and I aint even touched her....”
Dear.....
While we are sitting in this room I am starring at you. Can’t help but wonder if you feel the way I do. It’s more than a physical connection. Baby your soul is drawing me in. The vibes you give off is unbelievable and the physical is something like incredible, don’t worry I’ll get back to that. But let’s talk about your inner beauty the light that shines within on the outside. I have to admit I...
Vicodin and Coffee the new viagra? lol
Apparently feels like I took viagra cuz I feel like I could keep going going going and I am truly letting that Cancer in me come out.. The fucked up part is I can’t release it inside you….
Will you let me?
Let me run your bath water and when you get out…Dry you off and lay you down. Let me kiss you starting at your forhead and going all the way down. As I turn you over on your back, I start kissing your neck. Im on top of you slowly moving as you move to my touch. Then I start licking down your chest, slowly anticipating sucking your breast. Damn Baby your Nipples are so hard just the way I...
I can't see it coming from my eyes so I gotta make...
Day 2,
I am going on because I have to. If it was left up to be I would rewind the hands of time and did everything I could to make sure I was healthy enough for you… They say it isn’t my fault that these things happen all the time… When it is right you will have your kid.. That is what they say.. but Why is it that I felt like this was right. It is my fault I failed in some...
Miscarriage.
Was it something wrong with me that I couldn’t bring my first born to life? Or was it that God had other plans for me? Dear Lord this can’t be life.. I told myself Linda you can handle this because you knew the risk.. However I got the phone call that what I thought was happening this weekend really is and I have to sit and wait for it to end.. Someone shoot me would be nice right...
Dear Little Person
Right now you are just a bunch of cells, you have no heart, lungs, arms, legs, fingers,toes, but I love you… I am scared that I won’t be able to bring you here to life. Even though the world is a cruel place I want to see your face.. How funny is it that you will be a little girl or boy that will depend on me to protect you from worlds misery… Even if you actually don’t...
Who's been loving you
I sit and stare at the phone wishing you was on the other end.. damn I miss my homie lover friend. I don’t get it we were suppose to be forever and I guess forever missed us..
I just want to know who’s been loving you…….Tell me who’s been there to hold and comfort you like I did?
It is all good I forever feel you in me.. after all we came inside of each other ha...
6hrs 14minutes
We have been on the phone and you have yet to bore me even in the times you were asleep.. I am still all wrapped up in your Spirit… … Big shoutouts to that Picture you sent me while you were out last night… True beauty babe.. funny u get me… HAHA You and I share the same Name I love it…
August 2010
17 posts
I just wonder
Talking to you makes my stomach feel like I need to puke, however I can’t stop loving you… I just wonder why I can’t let you go…You are like an infection that nothing can cure… Gotta find me a remedy cuz I don’t want to feel you anymore… forever your name will remain etched in my skin… Even if I get Laser surgery I will always know it was...
My Big Sis is getting Married
I am truly going to miss our 2am convo’s about nothing.. or our random outings to whereever we wanted to go.. However I am happy you have someone who Compliments you well! You inspire me I look up to you and Can’t wait to find the missing piece to my puzzle.. If I had to give up my big sister moments I can’t think of a better person for you to become 1 with…
Love your...
Would you wash my feet?
How many of yall would wash another persons feet, that wasn’t your child or family? Jesus did it so what makes you better than him? Sometimes we need to know it is ok to humble ourselves and do things for ppl some would look at as degrading etc Never think you are too good to come down low to meet anothers needs… because that same person could be the very one you need to meet your...
Like me enough to stay around.
The problem is People think that “LOVE” is enough.. I need for someone to always be in LIKE with me.. even when I am not doing what they would agree with they always can say they “LIKE” me Love is what you can give but don’t mean you like a… person.. So unfortunately sometimes we forget that we should Like the person we are with because When Love is not enough...
“Remember don’t bring into today what should be left alone with Yesterday!...”
– Me…..
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The scars she left behind
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When Love goes Wrong
I was in a domestic violence relationship for 5 out of the 6 years my ex Domestic partner and I was together. I felt like I didn’t deserve better and she loved me so I stayed. Funny how “LOVE” can make you believe in something that should have never been. I was 17 turning 18 when I met her and she was 20… She is a Gemini and I am a Cancer.. Toxic from the very beginning.....
This just came to me.. so I share.....
The time we waste complaining, we block the vision that God is showing us. Sometimes it takes the storm to come in order for you to pay attention to the madness around you… But after the storm is over…Things seem to go back to Normal however you end up picking up the things around you that were affected and putting… them in the trash or back together… Apply that to your...
1 year 11 months, 10 days, 17hrs 25minutes
Crazy I still count the months, days, seconds, minutes… Life doesn’t seem real. I need you here with me… I miss you Mama…It is time for your Medicine… UGH I wish you was here so I could give it to you.. However your in heaven Medicine free..Fly on my love..
Happy Mother's day written 5/11/09
Olivia Jordan Johnson A beautiful person Excellent at what you do, says your first born, the woman in all her dreams, says your first born girl. Omnipotent says your name sake. Everything, Amazing, Selfless, conqueror, Fighter, A woman of Honor, A light that shined so bright we know it reached Heaven, Say the daughter that calls herself the pretty one. Sympathetic, I miss you I love you I want you...
I WANT U BACK Written: 12/10/09
Days, Nights, Seconds, Minutes, silence, noise, Darkness, lightness, Sleeping, Dreaming, Eating, Bathing, doing the laundry, watching tv, reading the paper, on the computer, walking to the bus stop, at the grocery store, on the metro, at a birthday party, at a funeral, at a wedding, at a family Gathering, in the car, on the porch… Just to name a few..thats when I’m thinking of you.. ...
I met her
That dream of mines came true… I walked out my door and there was you.. I hope you mean what you say…cuz my heart is fragile and can’t be broken… however I can say this.. I will remember every hug and every Kiss… WELCOMe TO MY SEX ROOM lol
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“I Still am the fat girl you didn’t want to talk to …I just got...”
– ME!
The day she called me singing
I will never forget the text I got or you callin me singing Welcome to my sex room LMAO! you were so drunk yet your voice was so heavenly! I love u LMMJ (yep the J) LMAO!
July 2010
11 posts
“Living life as if it is almost over.”
– Just me
